Gilligan’s Soliloquy — Elan Mudrow

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via Gilligan’s Soliloquy — Elan Mudrow


I was born on a Monday,
Always first in line,
I wrote with a fine — pen
black letters,
on white paper,
black letters;

But watching uneven blocks
made me uneasy,
the way they
fitted together
like a row of houses
on the blue lines
that ran across my paper
blue lines
that tired to define
the borders of my mind;

But they should have known
I was born of the sea —
She was afraid of the deep
but there she dug
from dearth
the earth
on her own
volition —
Mama said
you are not
the victim of
condition —

So I step in the shower
and let the cool water run,
and there, I wash the weight of
yesterday — out of my hair,
the curve
of my spine
and watch it
stream away —

A release —
Silent peace —
To shed away
The pain of yesterday,
The pain in my chest
and in my mind
watch it all
leaving behind,
the memories of love,
and how I felt,
every moment —
— every minute —
every moment —
the feeling in it.

– the poem I wrote to myself when I chopped off my hair — on a Sunday


My mum always says,
That sometime goodbyes are necessary;
Like when I was seven,
And she stopped holding my hand;
Not because she stopped loving me,
But because she resolutely believed
That the greater part of loving someone
Lies in the resilience you show
When you let them go.

– goodbye for now


This is the year you turn
the year you figure out
isn’t always
what we make it out
to be;
that sometime I wonder
if you ever think of me,
while lying in bed
a head full of stars
staring up at the
ceiling in the sky,

The year you learn that
you could fly
all this while
but had walked

But your feet have taken you
this far you feel
grounded — in
sanity is a crazy
thing to think that
we were born
of the same whom
that carried me,
after you
that we were
taught to love
by the same
heart that
broke mine.
And yet I find
the sound of
your voice like the
of windows
after rains,
through the pain,
to twenty-four —
the year you figure out
that less may
be more.

       – my brother turned twenty-four this year